Spring nesting

So I haven't decided if i'm "nesting" or "spring cleaning" yet. What really is the difference? Isn't spring cleaning just nesting when your not pregnant? Thats kind of what I think, so I guess I'm just "spring nesting"? All the laundry is done, folded and for the most part put away! We need more dressers or less clothes. They are all filled to the brim, and there are only more clothes in baskets and storage...
Now the toys...thats a whole different story! The boys each have a tot/bin for their toys, which are over flowing to the floor and daddy had to bild selfs for Elijah room for the "big toys." With baby #3 on the way and being a girl she will get a whole new set of toys! I have been trying to sort and get rid of broken toys, and the less played with. But as soon as we get to the bottom the boys find a toy that is a favorite and just fell through the cracks. I feel terrible throwing away/donating toys. I know at one point all these toys were a favorite of one of my children. But at the same time they are just cluttering my tiny apartment!!
Working at McDonald's sure didn't help any. I got so so many free toys when I worked, and when I came in on a day off with the boys they always got 1-4 free toys from my friends/co-workers. I have doubles and triples of a lot of them. I have more toys and clothes for these kids than they will ever wear/use and i feel terrible getting rid of any of them! I need to just go in and find all the broken toys and toss them, all the stained clothes and toss them!
I have all the clothes Tiernan grew out of, but I promised them to my sister if she's having a boy (they aren't finding out) or my friend if she's having a boy. My sister has a boy and a girl so she doesn't need them, but as her sister i feel its my civil duty (lol) to give her first dibs! But my friend it's her first baby and she doesn't have anything. She finds out next tuesday what she's having. Thats going to be tough to get rid of Elijah and Tiernan's old clothes, I'm attached to them, its sad! We don't have room so I know they have to go, and this IS our last baby, i think, for a while..who knows!
Well after my little rant I need to get these toys ut of my living room so Eli can join his brother for a nap, and I can vacuum, clean out the closet in my room, and load the car with bottles and cans, and recyclables...
*80 days till Kylie is due*

super excited!

Haven't wrote in a loooong time, and when I signed on today I had 5 followers! Wicked cool..love it..
So I'm finally in my 3rd trimester and I can "feel it." Everything is ticking me off and I'm very moody as of late! I got anther bill for a "no show" on a Dr. appointment. I showed up for every appointment I ever made there, or canceled/postponed. I'm really bad with confirmation and I was starting to get REALLY mad, so my mom told me I should wrote them instead of calling. GREAT idea mom! Seeing as I'm extra moody and ticked off I thought I might explode, or cry on the phone with them. So I wrote them a letter and I got the right amount of "witchy" with a inch of polite. I feel a lot better now! I think I'm going to start writing letter more often now!
Today is a beautiful day out and I just want to be out with the kids! But of course Tiernan got cranky and wanted to nap...party pooper!! Eli didn't want to eat or nap but I told him it's the only way to have energy to play more later! I hope he gets up before Tiernan so we can go play out front and maybe go to the park after.. But sitting here with the blinds open and sun just pouring in, I'm getting super antsy to go back out. But I really should fold laundry...yuck!
Not really much "new" happening here lately.. Joe took his midterm last night for Firefighter 1. So I'm excited thats half over. Not sure when Firefighter 2 starts up, but I'm really not looking forward to it! But I have to keep in mind that being a volunteer fire fighter can turn in to a (much needed) career move. Right now I feel its unfair, he's never home as is and I never get to go out of the house alone (no kids), how selfish of him right!? Thats terrible.. being a fire fighter is a very unselfish thing to do! There goes my moody pregnant brian again!
I made a new blog and I think I'm going to go write in that now, I'm feeling quite sarcastic at the moment!

Proud momma!!

So I have been teaching the boys sign language! I think its so cool that they can sign to me... Elijah can do about 8 signs in 2 weeks or soo. A lot are animals because thats what he likes! He knows Lion, monkey, bird, elephant, more, mom, dad, thank you, drink... I think thats all for him. Tiernan can only do to so far but its to cute!!! He does more and drink. He does them both wrong but he's only 13 months he'll catch on. For more he puts one finger to the other open hand instead of both hands "pinched" going together and apart, and for drink he kinda just smacks his mouth instead of doing a c near his mouth. But needless to say I'm pretty happy with it! Tiernan uses his signs a little more since he can't talk, but Elijah uses them randomly when he is talking and he really tried to help his little brother use them!
Because they have been such awesome kids I tool them to the park today, the weather said it was going to be 70 with rain in the afternoon. I thought 9:30 was a good time to go then! Shortly after we got there it got cold and starting getting dark. The boys only got to play for about 45 mins before it started to thunder. I was sad too! Tiernan never has gotten to go to a park to play really, and there weren't a lot of kids to make it to busy. Tiernan still wont walk so he crawled in the wood chips and across the wood bridge thing the bounces. He was having a blast! I took some pictures but left the camera in the car!!! Elijah is so scary at the park! He goes down the biggest slides and down the fireman pole (with mommies help). He's just fearless!
I had to make Elijah a promise today that I DO intend to keep! He wants me to climb trees with him and play! I can't really do all that being pregnant! So I promised him this is our last baby so I can do all the fun stuff with him again soon! I never was much of an outside play person even when I was little (even ask my sister she hated that), But when your mommy you'll do anything for your kids... Yes that means learn to climb trees and touch nasty worms and bugs lol! I might even relearn how to ride a bike, haven't done so since I was 11? maybe...and it wasn't with to much success! To bad they don't have adult size training wheels! HAHAHA!!
Well nap time is almost over for Tiernan I should get laundry ready to go in and do all that mommy/wife stuff I do... Not that I want to...and its national no housework day! But I since I already started I might as well finish and celebrate tomorrow lol!

Easter!

We had an amazing Easter day yesterday! I forgot to put the boys baskets out the night before so when Elijah was going potty with daddy and Tiernan was still sleeping I snuck out with the baskets and put them on the tv stand. Elijah had already picked that he wanted the orange one, and Tiernan would have the blue. We also got a pink one for baby girl for next year. We bought new ones this year so they would all be the same size, no fighting, and Joe gave our to his mom on accident! Eli knew what one was his just by what was in them. He was sooo excited! We didn't really do to much candy. They got cars and bubbles stuff like that! When Tiernan got up he went for the car first and started picking jelly beans out of the Easter grass. It was so cute, and he loves jelly beans!
After playing with toys, having breakfast and some candy, the boys and I went off to church. They did a play and It was so so so cute! AFter church we picked up Joe and went off to my sisters for Easter dinner. My sisters fam, my parents and two other families from church came to dinner as well... They left soon after and then It was family only which was kinda nice, not that it wouldn't have been nice if they stayed. Then Briella (my niece who is 4) and Elijah had an easter egg hunt! That was the highlight of the day. So cute, so much fun too. We only found 39 out of the 24 eggs that were JUST hidden, luckily they are outside though. After it was desert and coffee.
Joe's mom called soon after and we headed up the my brother in laws house for easter with them and more desert. The bys each got another easter basket from mom mom and pop pop. More toys, candy and what not! We only stayed a short while because it was getting late but it was nice. While we were there hubby asked to buy one of his brothers grill from him, So we got a $100 grill for $20. I swear he can buy things you didn't know you were selling, and sell you things you didn't know you wanted to buy! He's to funny! But we have a grill now, it needs a tube, grease catcher, and the tank needs to get filled, but I'm happy! Were grilling tonight!
All in all Easter was a very nice day. Daddy even took Elijah out to ride his new bike for a little, he didn't do to good though. Both boys fell asleep in the car on the way home, stayed asleep to be carried up to beds, and stayed asleep as we put them in. That never happens they must have been beat. I feel asleep on the couch shortly after. This morning though I woke up to a huge mess since we had such a bust weekend. Toys and candy everywhere and the kitchen was a mess even though I've hardly cooked all weekend.
Have I mentioned I hate Easter grass!? Well I do, so to get it out of my sight till next year, I already put the boys candy in ziplock bags and put the baskets up. Now I just have to sort the toys out, they got all mixed this morning, then to their separate rooms! But looking at all the candy they got...holy cow! Hubby and I each got a basket from his mom too so there is more candy in this house than anything right now. I already told my mom she needs to come over and help us with it!
Oops this was ment to just be a little update and turns out much longer than I had anticipated!

The original Public Bathroom

It hit 80 outside today! What a great day for a trip to the park! Apparently we weren't the only ones who thought that today, and theres no school today. The park was busy with little ones today and I guess the park maintenance hasn't started yet! There was broken glass my the picnic area next to the play ground. As for bathroom they were closed and locked up from last year! How great! Its 80 degrees, everyone is at the park, lots or water/juices being consumed and to bathrooms!
Of course I found this out the hard way as Elijah tells me he has to go during our picnic lunch on the complete opposite side of the park as the bathrooms. I Get up walk him all the way over to the restrooms, fight his little urges to play basket ball with the big boys and go down the slide, and we see they are still closed! NOOOOO!! Were potty training and we haven't started the lesson on "holding it." We get all the way back to our picnic and he used the nearest bush. How embarrassing was that. Of course he thought It was great but I was humiliated!
A little while later after some play and more juice he has to go again! This results in an accident.. Good thing I was prepared!! We had a pull up and some more pants, to bad the accident was in undies. But 10 minutes after his accident he runs over to the bush from earlier, drops his pants and "uses it" again! Lucky for me I had a boy, my sister and friends had girls. They had to drive to a nearby store to use the potty there. Good thing the girls are better at holding it than Elijah! I guess now we know for next time to check to make sure potties are open before going to the park and drinking lots and lots of juice!
But needles to say it was a very fun and eventful day at the park! We were there from a little before noon to almost 3. This was of course followed by nap time! Were going to color easter eggs tonight so after a mix of sun screen, sweet, and dye/vinegar the night will end it tubby time!

Ps we all wore our blue today for autism awareness day did you?

public restrooms...

I was at wal mart tonight and my potty training little boy needs to go potty urgently! I go in to women's room with my 3 year old and my 13 month old. I was really hoping for the handicap stall because it has a seat for the little one while i help the other one use the potty. Well of course its in use! And no she was not handicapped at all, no wheelchair, no walker she appeared perfectly able to use a "normal" stall. And she didn't have a child with her she needed to keep an eye on or use the little seat I had planned to use for my toddler!

Anyways.. the regular size stall is hard enough for just me to get in with my big preggo belly, let alone a toddler on my hip and a 3 year old. So needless to say i was pretty ticked at this point! I decided to let Elijah use it "by himself" and I was going to keep the door open and stand outside! As i'm bent over pulling down his pants and pull up he can't hold it anymore and pees a little on the floor and my leg! Now i'm very irritated! He went very well tho standing up at the potty all by himself though! I was very proud of him...

I was so ticked at the lady in the handicap stall so when my peed on the floor in front of the door I didn't tell her... Luckly another women was in with her little boy and helped Eli wash his hands for me... But really! Why did that women think she needed to use that stall? the bathroom wasn't busy and there were other stalls she could have used. What if a person who really needed it came in and couldn't use the restroom at all!

I guess I'm really sensitive to it in addition because my best friend growing up was in a wheelchair! But if you don't NEED it don't USE it! Another thing is why can't all places have the small toilet for children to use! I've seen some at wegmans, other wal marts and the mall! Do they really want to have to mop up pee all the time from little ones?

breast feeding

I joined the website I love, cafemom.com. I joined all these groups that apply to my life, one for each month my kids are due it, potty training, toddlers, babies, and pregnancy ones among others. Well on there today a women posted asking if she had to breast feed using her "ta tas" or if she could just pump.

I answered that I believed she could, but it would be harder and she might not get as much. I was trying to be supportive, but the nicer I was to her the more I just wanted to yell at her! I know its stupid, but I've been crazy this pregnancy! I breast feed my son Elijah till he was 1 year, and Tiernan till he was 8.5 months. They both weened themselves, and I felt like a terrible mother every time I gave Tiernan formula like I had failed him in some way. I know I'm crazy like I already admitted, but It's just how I felt. I plan on breast feeding this little one as long as she will go also!

I don't get it though. Why not breast feed? Unless the baby wont latch or some other outstanding circumstance I just don't get it. I feel that its usually the mother being selfish! Like smoking and drinking is soooo much more important then giving your child the best start possible. I guess since I don;t smoke and only drink on rare occasions that I don't get the importance. Yes two times while i was nursing Tiernan did I have a couple drinks. They were my sister in laws batchlorette party and her wedding. And I felt terrible both times that I choose what I wanted over my baby and gave him formula.

When I had Elijah I was a "Teen mom" I had turned 19 exactly 4 months before he was born. I feel like I missed out on lots having him so young. I didn't get to be a normal 19 year old, 20 year old and so on. I also feel I let my husband down on a typical dating experience when we first met. I had a babysitter our first date or two but after that Elijah came with us. I was still breastfeeding at the time and only 20 so its not like we were planning on going to clubs and bars but still. But there I was at 19 years old and I even choose my son over myself!

I sometimes can't help looking at my situation and judging other people by it. Like "I did it why can't they?" or "they are older and more mature than I was and look how I did things better." Which in honesty yes I breastfeed while I was 19, living with my sister and her family, working at mcdonalds and dropped out of college. GO ME!

I am a very shy inverted person and I would breast feed in public too! I feel if my kids hungry I'm going to feed him! It's what they were made for anyway right!? Yea I know I'm right there, if they weren't made to produce milk they wouldn't. Not that i just exposed myself, whipped out my breast in front of everyone and latched on my baby. Not even close... With my first son I used a blanket, and my second I bought a cover that wrapped around. In both cases you would have thought I was just cold and trying to keep warm if you looked quick. And yes I did nurse my son in church, but again I didn't sit in the front row and expose myself, I moved to the back, went to the entry way with the couch, or even in the nursery.

They also make shirts that are perfect for nursing so you'r abdomen stays covered and a top layer comes up to expose a nursing bra. I don't have those, they are a little costly for only a years or so worth of wear, but I'm going to beg hubby! I also bought two nursing tank tops, they work just like a nursing bra on are a tank. They work well under a sweater or button up shirt. I guess i just don;t get with all these comfort options why anyone would still choose not to nurse, its the best thing for your child!

I've had people come up to me and give me suggestions about this pregnancy or my kids that with help with problems or allergies later on and I just think "or you could just have breastfeed them and you wouldn't have to worry about it." Like I can eat peanut butter with out my baby getting asthma...

Off topic a tad... I hate maternity pants! They are terrible! After how many years of making these don't you think they could get it right? Im wearing jeans right now and they are just hanging off my butt and legs. The elastic band as soon as I washed it it folded and no longer lays flat around my belly! I just ajusted it and looked down to see a huge dark red ring around my hips from how it was sitting. These aren't cheap either, I got them from motherhood maternity! My sister got hers cheaper from Bon Ton and loves them..go figure. I paid more and hate them she paid less and loves them... At motherhood you also can't return anything. How ridiculous in my opinion. I could see if there was a time limit, so you don't wear them for your pregnancy than try to get your money back.

I feel much better after my little rant here! I feels good to get things off my chest once and a while. And since no one reads this anyways I wont get any negative feedback. Thats good I guess, even though I am kinda in the mood to debate!